For thinking out loud!!!!!: 2008

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Emi ke? Angelina Jolie! No way!

What one word embodies you?
	I am the embodiment of Beauty. You are a person that views the world as this magical place, finding beauty in almost everything. You find beauty in the most simple and fundamental things, as well as in more complex things such as people. You're not one to look for beauty, you just see it. You understand things for what they are, and expect nothing more.
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Na me!

What type of student are you?
	You are a academic. You have the rare ability to juggle your workload and your social life. You maintain a good equilibrium and often wow others with your ability to do so.
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Am so sweeeeeeeeeettttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What Flower Are You?
	You are a Sunflower. You are spirited and vivacious. Willing to do anything to help others be happy, and ask nothing in return. You always see the bright side of any situation and are the life of the party. It is impossible to feel down when you are around.
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See! I'm a romantic! True!

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?
	You will fall for the sensitive guy. You'll find your future man wherever turtlenecks are sold. He will have depth, introspection, and a disturbing knowledge of musical theatre. And he may be a little weird. But hey, while your girlfriends cry over broken hearts, you'll be having Shakespeare read to you every night.
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Monday, October 20, 2008

Thinking out loud... on a page

i have discovered that writing is a gift. for me, i write because i feel there is soooo much on my mind to say, and then it jus comes out interesting! its funny ow little insignificants can become of interest to people! why should myincoherent ramblings and sometimes, retarded musings sound like a great work of art to others? because, writing is s gift!

so i write... i write to reember, i write not to forget. feelings, happenings,thoughts and wonderings of my wandering mind. i write to find succor in my intricate articlations of my deepest ponderings. i write to immortalize my fondest memories of cherished experiences. and sometimes, i write to hide what i want to keep from time and from the listening world. so i can say it all and only i would understand what i have said. but ussually, i write, co i jus love to write. the climax of offloading pent up thoughts is second to none. i can fully understand as i carefully explain to you and to myself, why, how, when and what happened/will/be/should/ be/ might be/ or i wish...!

to some, writing is some kinda fantasy you escape into... well, yes... and no... if anything, articulatng your thoughts on paper opens you up to whatyou cannot hide from. so, rather than escape, it hits right in the face.

ok, so now i gotta go... i will complete this, i will still write.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Now, I'm Thomas Edison...

Its distracting... this way that I feel. It is annoying. I dont like incomplete pictures. In my mind, I'm supposed t ofall in love with someone that is in love with me, or that would at least fall in love with me. Not someone who propositions me with the most depraved and lewd propositions that make me tingle all the way from my spine to my finger tips. Its so unfair. Why can't things just be a ittle more favourable??

Yeah, I know, that is myopia talking. Who says I won't be somehow grateful for this soon? And whose to say how long I have to get to that time?? If there's anything to be grateful for about this whole experience, i want to know it now. If not, I'm seriously tempted to forgo my pride an sense and run into his arms like an idiot that I would be if I very well do that. At least, I'd be getting something, even if its really nothing. It hurt, my heart. Cos, its gradually shattering. Piece by piece falls apart with every thought. I can not accept the fact that he does not feel anything apart from this insane lust for me! I am a very likeable person! how can he not fall in love with me???

My vanity tells me that he is in love with me but just doesn know it yet. And my dramatics also ad that by the time he finds out I'll be long gone and he'd be running helter skelter to find me cos then he'd have realised that I am the only key to his fufilment!! And of course, my femine pride couldn't but include the fact that by then, I'll be unavailable and he'd be the sorriest and most miserable thing on earth for the rest of his pitiful life!

This too shall pass. I wish that would happen very very soon!

I copied this shamelessly...

1.What time did you get up this morning?

4 something...

2. Diamonds or pearls?
pearls. just becos...

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?

How she move... nice movie. Its dance now, has to be nice.

4. What is your favorite TV show?

Maybe Hustle?

5. What did you have for breakfast?

Bread... oops! Just remembered breakfast is incomplete... and I think I have had lunch...

Got to go finish me breakfast. Quick!

6. What is your middle name?
Olufunke

7. What is your favorite cuisine/meal?
Rice. So long as its cooked and not blended or any of those funny exotic stuff they do t perfectly okay foods nowadays! Make that ofada rice. So I'm homegrown, arrest me!!

8. What foods do you dislike?
Foods without spice or pepper... Did I mention that i looooooove spicy food? That should be num 7? Yeah... I looooooooooooove hot and spicy food!!

10. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
Best of Anita Baker
Tree63

11. What kind of car do you drive?
How does that consain u?

12. Favorite sandwich?
sandwich.

13. What characteristics do you despise?
trying to be sharp-ness. Outright cruelty. Untruthfulness. Can't stand stupidity too. Don't care whose fault it is.

14. Favorite item of clothing?
Has to be me fave blue jains!

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Greece

16. What color is your bathroom?
One funny color like dat. dont know the name...

17. Favorite brand of clothing?
Dorothy Perkins.
H&C

18. Where would you want to retire?
Kenya? Ni bo???!!!??? Nigeria.

19. Favorite time of day?
Whever its dark. be it night or eclipse time!

20. Where were you born?
LUTH

21. Favorite sport(s) to watch?
Definitely soccer. Up Gunners, man!

22. Who do you least expect to respond to this?
You know yaself!

23. Person you expect to respond first?
Dont know.

24. What laundry scent do you use?
Come again...?

25. Coke or Pepsi?
None. Dont like artificial drinks. Gimme water or jwice anytime!

26. Are you a morning person or night owl?
Night Owl.Mos' def!

27. What size shoe do you wear?
6.5
38/39

28. Do you have pets?
Not now. Does my FB puppy, Daisy count?? Thinking on cats and dogs when I get on my own turf

29. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone?
Well...

30. What did you want to be when you were little?
Important. Which then interpreted medical doctor.

31. Favorite Candy Bar?
Bounty. and Toblerone

32. What is your best childhood memory?
Mummy. Our house.

33. What are the different jobs you have had in your life?
Teacher. Admin Officer. Lawyer. Investment Banker. Now I dont know what I am doing...

34. What color/type underwear are you wearing?
You wanna know, huh...?

35.Nicknames:
Yetimi ( dat one's kinda special).Augustina. Small but mighty. and the likes

36. Piercings?
Ears. Hopefully nose soon!

37. Eye color?
Want to buy hazel.

38a) Ever been to Africa?
Wia is dat??

38b) Ever been to South Australia?
Why should I subject myself to suh immense torture and be strapped on a floatin metal contraption for sooo long just to be able to say I have been to South Australia?????

39. Ever been toilet papering or rolling?
Huh...?

40. Love someone so much it made you cry?
Loving him right now..., unfortunately

41. Been in a car accident?
Yes. I think my step dad spun the car aroud real fast once... That was after we flew over the division into the opposite lane. that qualify...?

42. Croutons or bacon bits?
None of the above please.

43.Favorite day of the week?
Friday. Signifies begining and end at the same time. love those kind of complicated meaningfulness

44. Favorite restaurant?
Mam put. It just doesnt get any razer in taste! Ehen, so what???????

45. Favorite flower?
Bride of the night... abi watsdname? The one that lets out fragrance at night only.

46. Favorite ice cream?
strawberry with choc bits and vanilla streaks... okay so i dont really do ice cream, ehen???

47. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
afnt efen begin it.

48. What color is your bedroom carpet?
Pupa rodorodo

49. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
wetin kon be ya own na?

50. Before this one, from whom did you get your last email?
FB. or was it HBS or the knot... one of those subscribed/junkmails sha.
but if u mean person, i cant remember!

51. Which stores would you choose to max out your credit card?
any perfume store will suffice.

52. What do you do most often when you are bored?
eat. day dream. think of writing...

53. Bedtime?
anytime, man! can even sleep here right now. dont try me o!

54. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?
wouldnt know!

55. Last person you went to dinner with?
Sekou Toure

56. What are you listening to right now?
was. anita baker.
right now...? Adeola Odeku trafic on a it has rained day.

57. What is your favorite color?
green. mint green. or any of those soft shades of green.

58. Lake, Ocean or river?
lake. mos def lake.

59. How many tattoos do you have?
none. yet.

60. Which came first, the chicken or the egg?
the hot oil/water usually preceeds both of them.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Going, going.... go...

I am not sure which is the way forward... So I'll just do nothing.

I hope that would not amount to having done nothing... I just want to d right. Maybe I also want to be right... But at what expense...? I'm tired of post paying... Want to pay now and get the benefits after. Post paid is... always a trap!!! Believe me, I know...

So to do or not to do? Do I try to save this? Why am I the one thinking about saving? it should not be this way!!! There should be some element of reciprocity... I mean... So, if that, then...

So, to do or not to do...? To go or to let go...?

Friday, September 19, 2008

Still first things...

I remember my firsts with varying feelings. Shock. Amusement. Amazement. Uncertainty. Embarrassment. Sometimes, down right shame!!!

Well, I guess it's my choice what I feel about stuff I've done. As a personal motto, I do not entertain regrets! Period!

So, back to firsts... I remember the first time I wrote a poem. I think it was about some guy being the ace or something. It was a lovely poem and I totally was knocked off my feet at the depth I had in me. I used to do a lot of thinking and writing, in my head! But actual poetry? I thought that was for Shakespeare. Besides, no one around me was so inclined. My poem got a lot of props and then... well here I am, writing for fun, and hopefully for someone's else's pleasure. I remember my first play. Cant forget that one. I titled it the Quest. Its a very trado-satirical piece (my blog, my choice of words, my business!)Someone asked to let him produce it... I declined, graciously. I think I'm going to go dig it out and do it up for publishing or production. Hmm... I remember my first song... I think the lyrics are still somewhere floating around in my head. I remember my first choreographed dance... I was determined to dance, whether I had the skills or not. Two years down the line, I was called a natural. It's been a while now, but I am going dancing again. Tomorrow to be exact!

I remember my first crush. He is still 7 years older than I am. He was my first friend, first kiss, first plenty plenty things (and I'm not thinking hat you are thinking) I remember my first awareness of my feminity. The day I first felt very 'woman'! And I remember my first crushbreak (lol!) It was hard and intense, like everything else about me. I wish sometimes that I could be as surface as some folks. Its either deep or not there. I think I think too much...

I remember my first relationship. Full blown, we-are-dating-publicly arrangement! He was cute and well... a lot of other things... I remember my first break-up. Guess who? It was painful, expensive (yes o! break ups are tres costly! I do not advice it!)and complicated. I wish I knew then what I know now. But that's part of life, learning and growing, right? I remember my first rebound! Gosh, was that a mistake or what? It took about 15 months, but it was still a rebound! And now he's hanging around my messenger yarning stuvin's!! Like I look stupid to you???

And of course, I remember my first love. It was sweet, unassuming, innocent and romantic... poetry and art, fun and laughter,... I still remember 'cos I do not want to forget. It ended. Sharp and abruptly. And started again. Now I don't know if its over again, or its just about to begin. I remember cos I just cant forget...

First times

Hey,
I am sure this is your first time on my blog?

Mine too!! (wow! We just met and we are alike already!!)

So welcome to think out loud all 'em things you too scared to say and sometimes to scared to think. This is Utopia. You can be you and I can be me. Comments and responses are appreciated. That's what makes writing worthwhile. I hope to challenge you to rethink your perspectives, I hope to challenge you to be all you can be. And I hope, more than anything to entertain and amuse you, so you'll keep coming back.

After all, if laughter be the food of life, laugh on, laugh on, my friend!!!

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