Its distracting... this way that I feel. It is annoying. I dont like incomplete pictures. In my mind, I'm supposed t ofall in love with someone that is in love with me, or that would at least fall in love with me. Not someone who propositions me with the most depraved and lewd propositions that make me tingle all the way from my spine to my finger tips. Its so unfair. Why can't things just be a ittle more favourable??
Yeah, I know, that is myopia talking. Who says I won't be somehow grateful for this soon? And whose to say how long I have to get to that time?? If there's anything to be grateful for about this whole experience, i want to know it now. If not, I'm seriously tempted to forgo my pride an sense and run into his arms like an idiot that I would be if I very well do that. At least, I'd be getting something, even if its really nothing. It hurt, my heart. Cos, its gradually shattering. Piece by piece falls apart with every thought. I can not accept the fact that he does not feel anything apart from this insane lust for me! I am a very likeable person! how can he not fall in love with me???
My vanity tells me that he is in love with me but just doesn know it yet. And my dramatics also ad that by the time he finds out I'll be long gone and he'd be running helter skelter to find me cos then he'd have realised that I am the only key to his fufilment!! And of course, my femine pride couldn't but include the fact that by then, I'll be unavailable and he'd be the sorriest and most miserable thing on earth for the rest of his pitiful life!
This too shall pass. I wish that would happen very very soon!
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"...and run into his arms..." my hands have been wide opened since waiting patiently for you.
"...just doesn know it yet." says who? I know.
lolololo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hey who r u gaan sef?
lolololo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hey who r u gaan sef?
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